Its 1:51pm to be exact. I have a whole stack of assignments to finish but I just can’t think straight anymore. The minute I start doing my assignment, my mind just wonders off thinking about how complicated my life has been.
Why is it so easy for everyone else and so hard for me? Its been 5 years of me loving you and the more time passes by, the more my love grows. We’ve all heard the saying that goes ‘If its meant to be, it will be’ and now I’ve made that as one of my personal life motto.
I love this guy and he loves me too. Most people around us can see that. Its not just love, its genuine love. The love you can’t buy. The love you can’t break apart. Its a real kind of love where you know that that’s the person you’re going to spend the rest of your life with. But we’ve been faced with something so _____, I don’t even know what word can be used to describe it.
I’ve always thought over time things will change and they would eventually give our love a chance. But no, they fought and they fought real hard. I have the scars and bruises to prove it. If it wasn’t for the fact that I value a parent’s blessing in my relationship, I would be gone by now. I would marry the guy I love without their permission. But I believe that to have a good blissful relationship, I’d need my parents’ blessing even if they disapprove or dislike him. Its sad to know that I’m battling against my own family to be with the person that I love.
I’ve gone through so much, I feel like I’m such a broken person inside and out. I’ve had my freedom taken away, all my belongings..my phone, my laptop taken away from me. And I’m just left all alone to think. And sometimes thinking kills me. I feel so alone. I have to lie my way through just to see him. I have to skip all my classes and sacrifice Uni just so I could spend more time with him. And I have never regretted doing all that for him because he do so much for me too.
I feel like everyone is against me because they can’t see how genuine my love is towards this guy. And this problem has made things go down really bad between me and him. We fight about friendships, we fight about small things and I realize that those little things don’t matter and should not matter as long as we both love each other.
Sometimes I just don’t know what to do but I know that I’ll never stop loving him or give up on him.
To him: Thanks for never giving up on me even though this is such a hard situation for the both of us. You’re the strongest person I’ve ever met. You’ve been told to stay away from me, you’ve been threatened and hated on but you still stood by me no matter what. I love you so so much from the bottom of my heart.
IAHSOIHAOIHF SORRY FOR BEING SUCH AN EMOTIONAL WRECK.